Submit, Woman!

It has been a while since I last posted. I have been very, very busy with things like children's birthday parties, work and other frivolities. My son, Isaac, turned 1 year old on Sunday. So that day marked the anniversary of his entrance into this crazy world and it marked exactly one year from the day that I thought I was going to die. Really, people, I thought I would die giving birth to that 9lb baby.
Anyway, I have been reading a new book called "Liberated through Submission." Anyone who knows me knows that I don't like to submit to, well, anything. I don't like people telling me what to do. I am a sensible woman and I can think for myself, thank you. I managed to make it this far without any major catastrophies so no need to direct me, no sir. However, this book is saying that not submitting to earthly authorities (boss, parents, teachers, husbands, etc.) is a form of rebellion and the Old Testament says that rebellion is akin to witchcraft. SAY WHAT? WITCHCRAFT? Hmm. That caught my attention.

I thought rebellion was just part of who I am, and God was like, "Yep, it is a part of you. A part of you I would like to change."

And I was all, "Excuse me?"

And He was all, "Yeah you heard me, fool."

Just kidding. God is totally not ghetto like that. I don't think.

Anyway, since I read that verse I started thinking about areas where I rebel and I wouldn't have ever thought that there are as many as I have time to count. The following contains a partial list of my rebellious transgressions:

- I speed
- I sometime curse
- I let my anger get the best of me
- I don't listen to my boss
- I don't listen to my husband
- I often think that I "know better" than others in authority over me
- I can't go on because this is depressing me....

So, I am rebellious and God says that he views rebellion as witchcraft because it is a desire to be like God - to rule your own dominion. That really hit me hard BUT I am excited to see that area of my life for what it is. Only when God brings things to our attention can we really try to change them. I now realize that God is going to fight my battles, God is going to change hearts, minds and situations, not me. What a weight off of my shoulders.

I just need to remember to submit to God all of my burdens. He alone knows my name, my heart, my struggles, my story, my needs, my weaknesses, my abilities, and my future. No one else is above Him, especially not me.